Thursday, May 8, 2008

Missing Mama


My mother passed away 17 years ago. 17 years.........man thats hard to believe.I remember her face like it was yesterday , yet I miss her like I haven't seen her in a hundred years.How can I begin to describe her. She was tall , had red hair and a wacky sense of humour. She always reminded me of I love Lucy. She would do crazy things just like Lucy. She would give a stranger the shirt off her back , but boy if she thought you had done something wrong , she would chew you up and spit you out. She was mostly self taught as she had to leave school when she was just a little girl , to help raise her brother and sister. But she was a very smart lady. She never worked for anyone else ,because she always had her own business going. Sometimes a clothing store or an auction , sometimes a nightclub. At times she was very well off , but when she died she really didn't have anything , because over the years she had given it all away. When I was growing up , she always had someone staying in our house , because they had fallen on hard times. She never met a stranger and every one in our town knew her , from the very rich to the poorest.She made me laugh all the time , sometimes when I shouldn't.

My daddy was a truck driver ,so he was gone for long periods of time. It always felt like it was just me and mama. She taught me so many things. From her I get my sense of humour, my compassion , and my stuborness. Her favorite saying was 'don't sweat the small stuff'.Sometimes I hear people complaining about their mothers and it makes me sad. I wish mine were still here. No one , absolutely no one will ever take the place of your mother, No one else really cares if your tired or sick or hurt , like your mother does. And even if you're 50 years old , she will still pet you and make you feel like her little girl.

Tommorrow , I will take out the letters that I wrote to her on Mothers day , many years ago. When she passed away , I found them , tucked away ,with other things that were precious to her. I'll read them and cry a little bit , but then I'll thing of something really funny she did and I won't be able to keep from smiling.

Yes,I will miss my mama tomorrow , but I won't be sad. My boys will all either come visit tommorrow , or call. With each 'I love you mama' that I hear , I will remember who taught me how to be a mother. Thank you for all that you taught me and all that I have become. I miss you mama. Happy Mothers Day.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

I pray that your memories of your mama have had you smiling all day! When you feel up to it, would you share a story with us? I would love to hear about your mama. She sounds like a really great lady :)

Happy Mother's Day to you!

6boyzmom said...

Your comment made my day. It touched my heart for you to ask me to share a story , that you would even care to read it. Thank you so much and I will do so soon.

Anonymous said...

The above comment was mine (you can find me on 2Peas as WVButterfly)...I just can't figure out how to make this thing stop calling me "anonymous" :-p hehehe

I'm looking forward to hearing about your mama :)

WVButterfly (maybe signing it this way will outsmart it)

Kim Wheedleton said...

What a lovely tribute to your mom - beautifully said...